Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Mcfearless

I love lazy Tuesdays, especially on those days when you have a break from school for the rest of the week. Thanksgiving is only two days away and I couldn't be more excited.. mostly because after Thanksgiving I have a whole month to look forward to Christmas!!!

Last night was so fun! I went over to my good friend Steph's house with a few of my closest friends and we went out to dinner at Kai, which is an amazing asian inspired restaurant. Then we came back to Steph's and made headbands and watched movies. OH and baked yummy treats :) I absolutely LOVE hanging out with my girl friends, they are by far the best I could have asked for. God has truly put some great people in my life, not to mention, He has strengthened my relationship with my boyfriend, Stephen. AND my good friend Whitney just had her baby today, 6lbs and 12 ounces!! She is perfect, healthy, and beautiful! So many good things have been happening lately, and it has definitely overcome the bad stuff thats been interfering! I'm so grateful for everything that I have in my life. Sometimes I get really sad because I feel like I should be better, do better, look better..blah blah.. ya know the whole nine yards.. but I've been blessed with SO much, more than I've ever asked for, and I should just be happy. And I am. I'm so happy. Whoever said that you can't cure sadness, they're wrong. You can. You have to trust in the Lord, and hope for the best. I'm usually a happy person, but sometimes life can really get you down. But not anymore. I am me, and I am content. I have great friends who love me and have shown that they are here to stay. I have a GREAT boyfriend who loves me unconditionally, even when I cry for no reason ;). I have a very, very wonderful family that gives me more than I need. And my dog, Marley, is the love of my life. She is like my child, I love her that much. So in conclusion, God is great. Life is great. I am great.

Talk to you soon :)

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Fa la la la la, la la la la

So, I saw New Moon last night, and I must say, it was pretty good. I mean, the books are better by far, but it is fun to look at all the gorgeous people living in a dream world with romantic sexy vampires and muscular werewolves who are in love. Love, isn't it great? I personally love being in love. I don't love scarcely, I love fully. I fully love my boyfriend of almost 3 years. I fully love my one year old siberian husky, Marley. I fully love my family, obviously. I fully love christmas, especially decorating for it. I fully love cold weather, and everything that goes along with it. I fully love my quilts. I love LOVE.

Speaking of Christmas, I already have my tree up. In fact, I've had it up since the beginning of November. Crazy, right? Absolutely not!! If I could have Christmas all year long I totally would. I cannot wait to give presents. Although they might not be the best presents this year because money has been low. :( But, I'll make it work. December will be an exciting month for me. First, Christmas. Second, I get to spend a 8 days in Kansas at Stephen's (the boyfriend) parents house. Its my favorite place to go.. they live out in the middle of no where. We get to ride four-wheelers, ride horses, eat yummy food cause his mom is an amazing cook, and its just so fun. There is absolutely no cell phone service, which is great, so we really get to have a get-away from the world. It is much needed. I get to spend the last few days of 2009 in a peaceful environment.. Thank the Lord! Hopefully 2010 is much better than this past year. Well thats all I have for now. I'll probably be back later today because I have a feeling that today will be one of those days where my mind is going a million rounds a minute.

Talk to you soon :)

Friday, November 20, 2009

Its Now or Never

Well its Friday and I couldn't be happier.. not that I have a crazy evening planned, although I will be seeing New Moon tonight which is exciting. I'm kind of regretful that I didn't get a ticket to the premiere showing but it will probably be more enjoyable with less people screaming.. :)

I spend a lot of time at home, and I love it. I love laying in bed with my dog and eating dry chex cereal and facebooking, and looking up awesome hair styles I wish I had the guts for. I'm a home-body and I wouldn't have it any other way. I spent a lot of my teenage life wanting to be accepted by the "cool people who go out to clubs, who look skanky and have a million friends" and if you know me, I don't fit in with them at all. I hate showing off my body, and I absolutely dread going to places with more people than a grocery store. It is not fun, and getting all sweaty and taking the same picture a million times does not interest me, one bit. People always tell me "get a life and come out with us!! OMG ITS SO MUCH FUN.." blah blah.. but going somewhere that is STD infested and crawling with weirdos does not sound fun to me. Call me old fashioned, but I enjoy staying at home with a few of my best friends, making cute girly things, listening to music, baking yummy treats, and just having sinless fun. Or even having an evening to myself, reading my favorite books, and hanging out with my dog who truly is my best friend. Not to mention, I could spend every single day in Barnes and Noble sitting over in the photography/gardening corner and reading wedding magazines, flower books, and all sorts of stuff. Its just who I am. So now that I'm coming close to not being a teenager anymore I've decided to start living my life my way. I think I'll be happier once I stop trying to impress people with things they like.

Talk to you later :)

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Waiting on the World to Change

So this is my very first blog, ever. I've never been one to post my feelings for the world to see, but things change. Sometimes I think it is good to let other people, even those who are unfamiliar, know what is on your mind. Blogging is perfect for that.

My life has been insane, lately. I'm a sophomore in college and I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up..? Maybe I'll be a professional student... kidding. But, I have been contemplating a few career choices. I love working with kids, and I was/still am thinking about teaching. I'm taking a few classes right now that pertain to teaching, but I was at Barnes and Noble (aka my sanctuary) and I was reading books on flowers..? Who does that? I do. I love flowers. I love everything about flowers, and I love decorating with flowers. So maybe I thought I'd be a florist. Open my own shop. It would be so cute and fun. But I'm scared of owning my own business. I'm not the assertive type of person. I'm shy and reserved. I also loving baking sweet treats. It is one of my favorite things to do. If you've ever been to my humble abode, I always have some sort of cookie, cupcake, brownie, or muffin made. But, is this really something I could do for a living...? And this poses a problem on my passion for helping kids. --When I was younger, my goal in life was to make a difference in as many people's life as I could. Thats how I stumbled upon being a teacher. Kids respect teachers because they are wise. They want to teach you, they want to help you, they want to be there for you, they want to make a difference, they are memorable. Who's better, than children, to change a life? No one.-- So I have all these aspirations, and I can't make up my mind. Sometimes I feel selfish when I want to surpass teaching because I feel like I've been called by the Big Guy upstairs to be a teacher, but is it what I really want? I guess we will see. I have Faith that I will be pointed in a direction that suites me best.

Talk to you soon. :)